That's a good question to ask...but, nevertheless, I'm back again, taking pictures, and hoping to start posting some up soon. My first priority is to start look through some of the work all of you have been up to in my absence, and its some pretty amazing stuff everyone has been doing. So hopefully over the course of the next few days I can get through all of it

Well, its been awhile since I've updated, but I have an excuse. The last 3 months have been an especially difficult time for myself. To make a long story short, I was about a 4 days from proposing to my girlfriend of three years when she decided it was best to move out. To say that I felt like an asshole is an understatement. There I was with the ring bought and everything, and she's telling me she is leaving.

Things had been getting better between us, but just in the past couple of weeks she was offered a job out in Pennsylvania, so she is moving there at the end of October, beginning of November. A couple of General Managers in the chain of theaters I work for were fired, and she got promoted up to fill one of those spots. I'm happy for her, but at the same time I'm feeling pretty sad about it. Not to mention lost. She is pretty much the last person left in this area that I talk to, so once she is gone I'm pretty much going to be friendless again. Sure I hang out with people around here, but I feel like I'm more of a convenience friend to them. The only time they want to do anything is when they need me to buy something, or can't find any where else to hang out. So I guess you could say that they aren't really friends at all. Either way, I'd rather be home by myself then hang out with people that I know are just using me.

Another major downer on this whole situation is that I have to move out of my apartment. I simply can't afford it by myself. My sister was going to move in with me, but rent is going way up, and its just not worth paying that much for an apartment. So, I get to go back to my grandparents' house with my tail between my legs while everyone gets to say "I told you so."

I'm also getting promoted at work since my general manager got fired and my girlfriend is being transfered across the country. I should be happy about it, but I'm not sure that I am. Getting promoted means I have to go back to working on the floor and being around people again. Not exactly the easiest thing to do for me. I like being up in my dark hallway running the projectors. Its peaceful and solitary, and I like that.

Now that I'm going to be by myself pretty much all the time, I'm hoping I can start taking some pictures again. With my life being how its been the last few months, I've just had no desire to even pick up my camera. Its been sitting on a shelf for over a year. Maybe its time to pick it up and start taking some pictures again...

Thank you to everyone who wished me luck! It was very much appreciated! I am now an ACE certified personal trainer, and it feels fantastic to finally have that title. Next week I'm going on vacation and when I get back I can actually start my career, and it feels great to say that!

Friday I take my test to become a certified personal trainer, and boy am I nervous as all hell. I've been studying for quite awhile now, and this is something I've wanted to do for as long as I can remember. I had a bit of a shock when I took a practice test for it, had no idea what the word "contraindicated" meant, and ended up with a 68%, which is failing. So not knowing what the word meant, I looked it up, re-took the test, and got a 100%. Go figure...one little word making that much of a difference...the moral of the story, if you don't know the meaning of a word, look it up! It could mean the difference between failure and success!!!

Saturday I have another bodybuilding comp in rockford. I'm nervous as hell, hence me writing a journal around 2:30 in the AM. I tried doing things a little differently than the one I had two weeks ago, so we'll see how things turn out. Personally I think I look much fuller, but we will see what happens with the water weight...hopefully I come in as lean as I did two weeks ago...ugh....freaking nerves...if only I could have a drink at the moment, lol